mondays have this crazy way of sneaking up on me. its like i go to sleep on sunday night expecting to wake up reading to start something new. something to make this week different from last week. today different than yesterday.
but it never seems to happen. i wake up on monday lay in bed for a good 1/2 hour, slowly make my way to the bathroom, brush me teeth, wash my face… and then go and curl up in my chair for the today show. i play with sasha for a bit and then dread getting ready to come into work.
and then i walk into the office, sit down at my desk and am overwhelmed by this, paperwork, emails, fundraising, planning, overflowing paperwork.
and this is just what I am, so OVERWHELMED! SO NOT in the mood to get started!
and so I look out the window at this: footprints, snow, nature.
I see those footprints that I want to follow- take me away I say, take me away I pray. and i closed my eyes and just waited. just paused. and then the thought of snow in the Bible. Our crimson stained sins will be washed away, they will be made white as snow. Everything will be made new— white like snow.
and i think of one of my favorite passages in the Bible:
AS THE HEAVENS ARE HIGHER THAN THE EARTH, SO ARE MY WAYS HIGHER THAN YOUR WAYS, AND MY THOUGHTS THAN YOUR THOUGHTS.. AS THE RAIN AND SNOW COME DOWN FROM HEAVEN AND DO NOT RETURN TO IT WITHOUT WATERING THE EARTH AND MAKING IT BUD AND FLOURISH..SO IS MY WORD THAT GOES FROM MY MOUTH. IT WILL NOT RETURN TO ME EMPTY, BUT WILL ACCOMPLISH WHAT I DESIRE AND ACHIEVE THE PURPOSE FOR WHICH I SENT IT.
and so I open my eyes, look back at my desk, and start achieving every purpose of this monday, a new gift from my intricate Creator.
SIDE NOTE: sorry about my last very dark and dreary “i hate contentment” post.
The day continued…
Usually sitting in rush hour stresses me out (and think about it: it had already been one of those days). It was putting me in a horrible mood and all I wanted to do is scream, to move far far away from this congested place. (I hate to admit it but slowly I am more and more conforming to the patterns of the east cost world). But today..today as I sat, I saw this as I looked out my window- and I was taken to that place of solitude and rest…again.
so thanks, Awesome God!
this Monday turned out to be okay. Definitely okay!