I always wonder if this is God’s will for my life. Am I doing okay? Am I making a difference? Do I still love this more than I did yesterday? You hear about love– how it’s sacrificial, how it makes a difference in other people’s lives, and I wonder, is that what this is? I don’t know how many times I’ve said it, how many times I’ve typed it, or how many times I’ve really felt it, but this is so much more than love. It’s passion, it’s my calling.
This August will make 8 years since I began my journey as a youth minister. 8 years! Yet why am I still questioning if this is right…why do I still have a fascination with root canals and crowns? Why am I still so scared that I might actually be doing ok?
Sharon asked me earlier this year if I had a plan for my professional growth and development. I don’t. Why not?! I’m just content. I’m at peace. Yet I question. I don’t at all get how the two go hand and hand, but can I just say, I so appreciate the loads of encouragement that the Spirit speaks through important people in my life. He just BLOWS ME AWAY! It’s perfect too that He would blow me away exactly when I needed it the most; when I needed to see that it’s time to go deeper into this calling not just for the kids, but for me!
“THE KINGDOM HAS COME TO US SO THAT IT CAN GO OUT THROUGH US.”
–LOUIS GIGLIO, SYMC 2011
I spent this weekend in the windy city with one of my best friends, my mentor, and two of the most dedicated youth ministers I have ever known. Together, Lord, we were all blown away by Your Spirit! It wasn’t JUST that we were in Chicago, it was that You saw the inner depths of our hearts. You met us and each of our own individual journeys and You carried us like no one else ever can or ever will. That alone blows me away. It’s beautiful, Your glory all around me; Your steady Words of assurance, STRAIGHT TO MY HEART!
“There is no kid in the world that is outside the reach of God’s crazy love.” Be ready kids, He’s about to blow you away too!
“A silent whisper in my mind, a sweet surrender to Your Love divine…Your fullness alive in me.”