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Comments on: silence. https://www.nicolebeholds.com/silence/ Tue, 12 Dec 2017 14:45:09 +0000 hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=6.9.4 By: Sonia Spangenberg https://www.nicolebeholds.com/silence/#comment-369 Tue, 12 Dec 2017 14:45:09 +0000 http://www.nicolebeholds.com/?p=100583#comment-369 Nicole, its totally correct to spend this time deep in your grief, reflecting. But when you are ready, you go forward being the young woman who makes your Mom and Dad and Creator proud of what you’re becoming. They have done well with you. Behold. That will always be what they have wanted. You can do this.

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By: Lori https://www.nicolebeholds.com/silence/#comment-368 Tue, 12 Dec 2017 04:28:04 +0000 http://www.nicolebeholds.com/?p=100583#comment-368 Sweet friend,
Your words made some kind of salty liquid fall from my eyes. I know, I know. They’re tears. The thing is, I can’t say that they are sad tears, but they aren’t happy tears either. They are what I’ve come to call, “heart full tears.” Heart full tears are paradoxical tears. When they come, they leave me feeling tired and refreshed . They feel happy and sad. They really are a giant paradox. When I read your post, I immediately thought, “Wow. Nicole understands. I understand.” Being the paradox that they are, though, I also thought, “I haven’t lost a parent. I cannot possibly understand.” The thing is, though, I understand pain. I understand wanting to have the power to stop it… To fix it. I also understand my complete inability to do just that. My tears are my heart’s way of telling your heart, “I hear you, and I care.” They are a way of expressing a comforted feeling of connection that my soul do needs, but it breaks my heart to know that you are hurting.

I’ve debated the issue of ME quite a bit. It seems that when I am focused on me, I am being selfish, and I care too much to be selfish… But… God made me with the ability to experience and process life from my own perspective. He must find value in that, right? I can rejoice for one person’s blessings while mourning my own loss. It’s so hard to process feeling two opposing emotions at the same time, isn’t it? Anyhow, I started seeing all of the happenings of the world as raw images while I am photoshop. (I thought you’d appreciate this analogy, but it may also make no sense to anyone outside of my brain). I process the information that my heart, mind and body receive, and I interpret it. I make sense of it. My life experiences and personality put a filter on those events. It helps me make sense of when others have with such drastically different interpretations of same experiences than those I’ve had myself. Others have a different filter. The world is a more beautiful place as a result of the trillions of filters moving about, interpreting information and sharing it through each unique filter, but those filters have to be shared in order to add to the great tapestry of the world. And so, my fellow broken and perfect friend, I am so thankful that you shared you and that you think about you. Because you brought it back to you, my heart connected. It doesn’t seem selfish. It seems real, and it seems beautiful.

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By: Helen Martin https://www.nicolebeholds.com/silence/#comment-367 Tue, 12 Dec 2017 01:01:44 +0000 http://www.nicolebeholds.com/?p=100583#comment-367 What beautiful truthful words. Love and prayers. He will always be a part of who you are and yes as time goes on we continue to learn from those who have left us. They continue to shape and mold us.

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